Today marks exactly 49 days since you left us. Both Yok Hin and me are slowly getting used to having dinner just the 2 of us without you.There are not many people who can spent their lives living together like you and me.Close to my 60 years of age, I was only away from you while i was studying in Australia for 5 years.You were the one who also accompanied me on my first trip to Australia. Imagine how many people actually live together for 55 years. Even Yok Hin has lived with you for over 30 years, 34 to be exact.During my early childhood days, you always took us along to your dancing classes, prayers in the temples, outings with your friends , swimming in the seaside etc etc. You would also guide us on our study, giving us 听写 etc etc. But my results were only so so, nothing that would make you proud about. While father was a very strict person, you were the tender mother to balance up our childhood life. I can remember during my teenage years, i was the outgoing one, always had activities with friends on bungalow stay, or girl guides on camp fire. You were the one who allowed me to attend all the activities which made my teenage life so full of fond memories. I can still remember on 1 occassion that i came back very late and father was already home, you would help to sneak me in with the back door and saved me from getting scoldings.I strictly remembered when we first moved to york road back in 1966/7, both me and Huay Siang were so excited and we were running in front of the Buddha altar and were making such a noisy sound as the upstairs were made of wooden flooring. You came up and gave both of us scolding and canning, from that day onwards , i have learnt to be respectful in front of Buddha.You were always forever offering help to care for all your grandchildren. York Road was like a care centre for all the grandchildren.Both Yok Hin and me are fortunate to have you stay with us when we were both busy working. You haved helped to care for our 3 children so dearly. You have helped us to raise them up to become all very fine adults now and you should be proud of them. They will love their grandmother and cherish the moments they had spent with you. They were insisting in sending their grandmother off on your last journey.As Yok Hin is the one who has the interest in cooking, it is fortunate of us( all your children) to have him mastering your recipe in making all our favourites like 'chap chai', 'or koay', 'laksa', 'popiah etc etc. These are all our favourites and without you around, we can still remember your recipe.I am grateful during the later years of your life when YH has retired, he was the one who helped fo take care more of you. This is the 缘份 you both have built. I can know you were very proud of him as you would always praise to your friends and relatives on how good he has been, always helping to take care of everything and he knows all the do's and dont's of all the traditional laws plus all the prayers ways. When your appetite was poor, he would try to cook up something different to improve your 味口. He would sometimes tease you to make you laugh.
We would really appreciate you giving us a sign during the last few days of your life so that we could cancel our trip to Taiwan. If not, we would have missed the last moments by your side. I guess Xiang Yih would be the luckiest one to be able to accompany you during your last few days, to be able to visit you multiple times a day. I believe you were happy to see him too.You loved to see beautiful things like flowers and whenever i dressed up for dinner you would say 'cantik' and when you received flowers sent from your children overseas during your birthdays, you would always comment the flowers so beautiful day in and day out and kept reminding us to water the flowers. I trust you would know that during your wake, our house were full of flowers, all for you.Now that you are not with us, we will forever cherish you in our memories. We love you mother.